too fast

i miss my childhood where i didnt have to worry about anything i usually worry a lot i dont know its just a thing i gotta deal with but it went by pretty quickly i mean dont get me wrong i wanted to grow up immediately but now that i think about it you wont experience these luxuries again without a price summer isnt what it used to be i remember when i would just spend hours at the pool but now everything seems boring and drawl i just dont see it anymore the goals of life and all that malarkey its just interesting to me to watch everyone around me fighting hard to achieve the goals in life this isnt what i want to get caught up in i would rather just let life take me wherever just have it pass me by completely sure i cant think of a time in which i cant hangout with bete but it will happen eventually and i will have to wake up and go about these toilsome tasks of the modern world i will miss my friends the most i know we say we will stay close but we all change its just not going to be the same truth is i wish i was a kid forever i know that sounds a little immature but everyone knows they dont want to do any of that stuff that adults go through everyday i really hope i turn out to be a decent parent not some boghide yelling at my kids to stay out of trouble i mean who cares they are just going to do it anyway everyone does

get real

why cant people just be themselves instead they act like idiots trying to be cool and do what everyone else does just be honest for a change i mean everyone lies but its time to just be straight and not be a bog things happen and you have to get past it once its occurred there is no turning back just think to the future and hope for the best i guess things happen for a reason or so they say i dont really believe in fate or all of that but it has to happen for a reason do what you want to do what makes you happy for instance i just like to walk and find anything to take a picture of that makes me happy and i find it interesting the different angles you can choose dont get me wrong i love to party but that really isnt me i not a big fan of people in general i wont approach you usually unless i know you decently  

help?

therapists just put thoughts and ideas into my head they give us "suggestions" to live a better life. but when it comes to their words coming out of your own mouth it's gone too far. just live your life for you not for anyone else. make your own decisions so you can grow to be independent. the medicine they give you to help your "diagnosis" or condition is most likely regulated by the FDA. thy are not to be trusted they make sure you are customer for life by not curing you but postponing the disease. all they want is money, everyone does. don't take these pills is my advice because you will end up worse off than before. in my experience I have been in therapy since I was ten which is a decent amount of time. but I have yet to feel better about myself. my parents have put a lot of money into this waste of time just to help me. I did take it seriously for a long time. till I realized that I wanted to have own life. I just want to be happy and to have enjoyment. I want to have fun with friends, real friends.

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schoolwork

schools limitations are inevitable all they want you to do is to stick the plan. is it so hard? it is when your trying to express yourself in our lives today. this petty work gets you no where in life it just keeps you busy, tales away from the real things that matter. if you gather the basic knowledge from these classes that we sit through everyday you will be fine. but all the other laborious tasks that the teachers make you go through are just not worth it. they are just here to judge you and your capabilities some of which don't show because you don't care enough to want to make an impression. for me school is turmoil the endless hours of work and study are unbearable. just listening to my teachers drone on and on about something I could care less about is intoxicating. in the end I know it will not matter for what will I have to show if I die tomorrow. although there is life to live in the future I want to live now not tomorrow or the next day but this very moment. I've missed my share of schoolwork gotten fs and ds I truly know i will not make up the work because I don't care what these people think of me. hell I don't care what anybody thinks of me. I will never remember any of these people or what they think of me. truth is these grades will follow me around forever. people will judge me immediately according to this variety of numbers and letters. these things that can ruin a life in a heartbeat.

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parents

their incessant torturing of our social lives is tormenting me beyond belief I don't understand why they don't see what really makes us happy definitely not decisions being made for us or rudimentary punishments these just cause us to lash back at them seeking revenge and to make them feel bad about what they have done but yet they don't they assume they are always right and truly believe they are parents can't be wrong according to our society they are all knowing and all seeing sure they may have more experience in life but how does that change what they experienced as a child and why do they not remember that? I don't think they seek out to make our lives miserable but in fact they do almost every day which is unhealthy for us and our day to day lives we think rather hope that it will get better but yet they find some other way to set us back even further to the point of hating them beyond anything we have ever hated before

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the one?

who is the one and how do I find her? personally I don't think we will ever find our perfect match maybe close but not exact the hunt for him or her is very stressful and tiring but keep at it as a friend of mine once said "let her find you".. his words were very true in my opinion but how long will that take for some people a lifetime others who are lucky quite sooner than that but will it last? if him or her understands you and the REAL you then maybe just maybe you two can make it through this godforsaken world that we call our home

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why don't they wake up

what's with society these days everyone walks around and does what the government tells them to do fucking wake up and smell the roses because they are dead and decaying the hunt for money is endless and futile because we will never get what we want why do we lose our rights at school? why do we have to do what the government says? why aren't we allowed to do certain things? because we are simply forced too with little reason these are just some questions I think to myself on a day to day basis things like this that a "normal" person doesn't think about I want to know what "normal" is in a sense I believe it is the people who have not woken up to the government corruption

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